I Am Authentic.

I’ve been absolutely terrible at this whole blogging thing. I had all these grandiose plans of what I was going to do, what I was going to open up about, what I was going to bake and craft and share about, but I think, you know, maybe it just hasn’t been the right time these past couple of weeks. I shouldn’t feel like I’ve failed. Maybe I just come to it when I feel that calling.

Like today. I called out of work. It just felt like I wanted a mental health day. And I know that some people think that’s just a bullshit excuse to be lazy (and I’m sure it absolutely is sometimes) but honestly, today I feel like I want to just take a breather. And just a moment ago I was drawn to open WordPress for reflection.

My husband and I took a roadtrip to Asheville, NC and the Biltmore Estate with some very good friends yesterday (another good reason for a day off – I’m tired!). We’ve been there many times but it’s always a different experience depending upon what season you’re going and who you’re going with. We had so much fun exploring the grounds, laughing at silly jokes, and people watching.

We’ve only known these wonderful friends of ours for a little over a year now but I feel that we have known them forever. You know when you just instantly connect with people on your own wave length.

At the beginning of the new year, I made a vision board and it’s incredible how I’ve seen many of my goals for the year beginning to manifest in my life. One of them being to surround myself with positive people, to let go of things that no longer serve me. It’s important to have friends who encourage you to be your very best *authentic* self. And I have no doubt that the universe has brought these friends and others into my life for this purpose.

I’ve been exploring the inner workings of my mind in an effort to become my most authentic and happiest self. This exploration just within the last few months has been so powerful. I have been venturing into areas I’ve always been drawn to but that my ego has always seemed to get in the way of. Things that I’ve felt called to but was always taught are taboo. Growing up in the Bible Belt of North Carolina, things like tarot cards, crystals and meditation have never really translated well. Replace those things with going to church, reading your bible and prayer – anything else was of the devil.

It’s really taken me years to figure out that tarot cards and crystals in particular are NOT EVIL, people. Tarot card readings are not a means to speak with demons and spirits. What they actually are is a means to connect with your higher consciousness and listen to your intuition. It is a tool for bringing those thoughts and feelings that you’ve pushed to the outer rims of your consciousness back to the light. And my crystals are helpful friends who allow me to create a positive space – whether I am meditating with them or if I bring one or more of them to work with me to shield from negative coworkers, or even doing a tarot reading with them – they radiate certain energies that, along with mindfulness, aid me in day-to-day life. These resources resonate with me in an unequivocal way.

My goal in my life is to live meaningfully and authentically. To be truly happy. To explore the world and to learn from it. As I approach my thirties, this is all becoming more important and necessary than it has ever meant for me before. It’s incredible how things begin to unfold when you tell the Universe or your higher self or God what you want out of life. When you put your authentic self out there, you begin to attract the right kind of energy back to yourself.

If there is anyone reading this blog post who is unhappy or even just feeling a little off lately, I urge you to connect with yourself and let go of your ego. What is it that’s distancing you from your potential? If you are looking for resources for guidance, I recommend checking out Chris and Sara Oakley of Soul In Wonder (they’re on Facebook!). They are incredible life coaches who are so passionate about inspiring others, especially Vegans, to unleash their true selves. They have been a divine sanction for me in my journey thus far.