I Am Worthy.

This year started off shaky.  January was incredibly tough. Between serious stressful stuff going on all month at work and the loss of my grandmother, my husband’s aunt as well as a former coworker of his, we seemed to consistently be undergoing turmoil in our household.  What got me through (other than the incredible steadfastness that is my husband) was the encouragement of my vision board. No lie!  I am amazed by the amount of positivity I maintained during that difficult month.  Every morning I see my vision board in my bathroom and I remember to keep my chin up and to take life one step at a time.  I got myself through that difficult time by never losing sight of my core values.  I remember to be grateful, to breathe, and to remain soft and humble without losing my strength, among everything else.  I was able to find my zen in the midst of chaos.vision board

Despite all that loss and all of that strain, this year has been an incredible year for me.  I am working on finding my passion and purpose in this life.  I am learning to trust in the universe, to trust in the energy, and to trust in my intuition.  I realize that I have always struggled between what my heart wants and what my head wants.  I have always overanalyzed to the point that I would actually end up causing myself harm.  I have always been my own worst enemy, judging myself so harshly in so many aspects of my life.  That stops now.  I have been opening up and working with the universe rather than blocking it out like I have for so long.  Looking back, I realize that there have been a few groundbreaking moments in my adult life – all that occurred when I decided to open up to the universe.  These have been the most shaking and yet the most meaningful for my life to move forward into alignment. But this year will be the first year I am fully opening myself up to my higher consciousness and it is truly amazing how things just start coming together once this higher power is aware of your intentions.

Just Monday of this week when I was commuting into my 8 – 5 job, something incredible happened to me that I took as a good omen of alignment in my life – I got stuck in traffic.  I know that sounds crazy but just keep reading!  Before leaving my house I chose a podcast to listen to on manifesting your desires – nothing like positive vibes on Monday morning!  That’s when I discovered Sarah Prout.  (Her journey is absolutely inspiring so I totally encourage anyone to consider checking her out on social media or listening to her podcast channel.) The podcast was entitled “10 Things Successful Manifestors Do Differently.”  As I am driving in Charlotte rush hour traffic, I’m listening to the episode and feeling very positive and very connected to this message.  And as I’m approaching the end of the list of 10 things, traffic suddenly comes to a complete stop.  I-85 North becomes a parking lot – no one is moving.  When the episode ends, I keep listening and it automatically starts playing the next episode, this one entitled “Your 5 – Minute Meditation for Manifesting.” So as I’m sitting there in traffic, cars all around me, with cloudy bleak skies on a Monday morning – I concentrate on this meditation.  (I know this is incredibly dangerous and I DO NOT encourage anyone to meditate in their car in rush hour traffic EVER.)  It was so powerful and in that moment I just surrendered myself fully.  I surrendered to Sarah’s words, repeating what she was saying out loud in my car.  I envisioned a white light surrounding my heart extending out into the white cloudy sky and out into the universe.  I held my hand to my chest and felt one with universe – I truly felt myself as star stuff in that moment.  When the meditation was over, I reached down to my phone to stop the episode and immediately traffic began to move again.  It was as if a divine force wanted me to stop where I was and listen to this meditation right then and there.  I began crying in my car because of how powerful this felt to me. I did find out what the reason was for this hault in the flow – as I approached the scene, I saw probably 10 to 15 police vehicles pulled over on the shoulder arresting a man – the fact that this was not a car accident made this even more powerful to me.

What this really divine intervention?  I honestly believe it was.

I am worthy of everything I have ever desired.  And you are too!  You just have to open up and tell the universe what you want.  What you seek is also seeking you.  I believe this with all of my heart and soul.landscape-sky-night-stars-29435.jpg

 

 

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I Am Authentic.

I’ve been absolutely terrible at this whole blogging thing. I had all these grandiose plans of what I was going to do, what I was going to open up about, what I was going to bake and craft and share about, but I think, you know, maybe it just hasn’t been the right time these past couple of weeks. I shouldn’t feel like I’ve failed. Maybe I just come to it when I feel that calling.

Like today. I called out of work. It just felt like I wanted a mental health day. And I know that some people think that’s just a bullshit excuse to be lazy (and I’m sure it absolutely is sometimes) but honestly, today I feel like I want to just take a breather. And just a moment ago I was drawn to open WordPress for reflection.

My husband and I took a roadtrip to Asheville, NC and the Biltmore Estate with some very good friends yesterday (another good reason for a day off – I’m tired!). We’ve been there many times but it’s always a different experience depending upon what season you’re going and who you’re going with. We had so much fun exploring the grounds, laughing at silly jokes, and people watching.

We’ve only known these wonderful friends of ours for a little over a year now but I feel that we have known them forever. You know when you just instantly connect with people on your own wave length.

At the beginning of the new year, I made a vision board and it’s incredible how I’ve seen many of my goals for the year beginning to manifest in my life. One of them being to surround myself with positive people, to let go of things that no longer serve me. It’s important to have friends who encourage you to be your very best *authentic* self. And I have no doubt that the universe has brought these friends and others into my life for this purpose.

I’ve been exploring the inner workings of my mind in an effort to become my most authentic and happiest self. This exploration just within the last few months has been so powerful. I have been venturing into areas I’ve always been drawn to but that my ego has always seemed to get in the way of. Things that I’ve felt called to but was always taught are taboo. Growing up in the Bible Belt of North Carolina, things like tarot cards, crystals and meditation have never really translated well. Replace those things with going to church, reading your bible and prayer – anything else was of the devil.

It’s really taken me years to figure out that tarot cards and crystals in particular are NOT EVIL, people. Tarot card readings are not a means to speak with demons and spirits. What they actually are is a means to connect with your higher consciousness and listen to your intuition. It is a tool for bringing those thoughts and feelings that you’ve pushed to the outer rims of your consciousness back to the light. And my crystals are helpful friends who allow me to create a positive space – whether I am meditating with them or if I bring one or more of them to work with me to shield from negative coworkers, or even doing a tarot reading with them – they radiate certain energies that, along with mindfulness, aid me in day-to-day life. These resources resonate with me in an unequivocal way.

My goal in my life is to live meaningfully and authentically. To be truly happy. To explore the world and to learn from it. As I approach my thirties, this is all becoming more important and necessary than it has ever meant for me before. It’s incredible how things begin to unfold when you tell the Universe or your higher self or God what you want out of life. When you put your authentic self out there, you begin to attract the right kind of energy back to yourself.

If there is anyone reading this blog post who is unhappy or even just feeling a little off lately, I urge you to connect with yourself and let go of your ego. What is it that’s distancing you from your potential? If you are looking for resources for guidance, I recommend checking out Chris and Sara Oakley of Soul In Wonder (they’re on Facebook!). They are incredible life coaches who are so passionate about inspiring others, especially Vegans, to unleash their true selves. They have been a divine sanction for me in my journey thus far.